Hi lovelies!!
all my friends have been or are in relationships and it lowkey makes me feel chuddy for not having ever had a REAL romantic thing happen to me. Like there was a little romantic tension with me and my friend that I met over summer but we barely talk anymore. Also I'm bi so I can literally choose anyone and somehow i'm still lonely, and I would say I don't need romantic love causeI have my friends but i'm convinced they hate me and he universe wants me to die and also I would love to feel wanted either way (damn this is a lot I promise next post will be less depressing I hope). I also kinda like being single but I want a girlfriend (i lowkey just don't really want a boyfriend even though i'm bi) at the same time. aAlso, i only recently realised I like girls and came out but now that I look back i've been in denial for a LONGGG time. in 2020 I was bisexual then thought it was a phase when I became religious, then was less religious and thought I was straight but looking back there were signs this entire time. I never turned straight after 2020 I was js confused. Like for example, my friend and I were cuddling on my birthday and I loved it SO much I organised a whole nother hangout in hopes we'd do it again (spoiler we didn't).
sorry about the depressing and unstructured post guys
signing off with love, farrah ♡
from a 23 year old whose first real relationship was at 19 and first KISS was at 16 (being vulnerable here) it's actually the biggest blessing in disguise to be single as a teen!!! being able to focus on you and your friends right now is genuinely the best place you can be even if it feels lonely sometimes!! i hope this was helpful - being a teenage girl is one of the hardest things i ever did so i feel for you lol
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